![]() The sunrise was already done and you heard the sounds of other cadets passing by your bedroom door. Half-lidding your eyes disappointedly, you looked up to realize that others were starting to wake up already. Soon, the blood stopped dripping and your heart rate slowed down. Even though you've done it for so long now, it always hurt as much as the very first time.ĭrawing in a shaky breath, you breathed in and out slowly so you wouldn't cause the adreniline from the pain to kick in. This was pure satisfaction and bliss for you, at least until your senses kicked back in and you hissed quietly at the large amount of pain now erupting from your arm. Thick beads of blood soon appeared and started making its way down your arm, joining with other droplets of blood. You pushed down, making sure not to accidentally cut a vain. "How many years has it been?" you asked yourself, just below a whisper. You don't even remember what started this unhealthy obsession in the first place because you've done it for so long, but the addiction's just grown stronger and stronger over the time you did it. It hurt, having to drag the blade across your delicate skin, but it was the only way you could have some sort of comfort to the hell you kept putting yourself in. If you had to be honest, you had a crush on him, but then again, who'd want to date someone who purposely harms themselves? ![]() ![]() The only thing that gave you the motivation to stay alive were your squad members, including your Corporal, Levi. You felt as though it could all be over soon and no one would pay much mind to your death, but you never had the motivation to do so. Life was becoming more and more dull in your eyes. I just thought this might be a good way to help those who are the same and idolize Levi like I do.Īlso! Warning to the squeamish! Trigger warning: Explicit details of self-harming. I am not trying to promote or romanticize self-harm in any way! This is simply an idea I've had for a while, mainly because I am a victim of self-harm.
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